Sunday, December 6, 2009

SHE


SHE
In this world adulterated with malice
It is rare that you come across something pure and unadulterated
In the grandeur of Sunset
She came across as a blissful creature bestowing all with unaltered exuberance and delight
Her sheer presence could brought
Frozen leaves melt to life Dead flowers to blossom again
She lived in a world, ordinary dreamt of
She had things going the way she wished
To put it she was content and advancing toward a larger goal
Showering the way with her childish innocence
Which may sweep you off your feet in an instance?
To the epitome of confidence that she was
The world never mattered all that mattered were few close ones
But as has been life and its basic fundamentals
Every coin has two sides and her coin flipped, everything shattered
As has she been abundance of enthusiasm
She took it all with pride and elegance
Shook it off and didn’t let anyone know but few
On the surface things were in concinnity
But inside the glass was cracked
Form the surface people saw the beatific figure still spreading hope and happiness
But this was done on the cost of inner well being
What has remained pure in this debased world let the rotten stuff root in her?
But still the overpowering brilliance of her charm
Resisted the fungi of iniquity to set place in her
The world became more and more displeasing
Fighting it all she was still captivating
But an inner dam was on the verge of breakdown
The people whom she gave light in dark hollow world were out of sight
She was left alone in her fight
Her innate strength began to broke
Thoughts of giving up loosened her hope
All she needed was to realize a mere simple fact
Who gave her this charm, this elegance?
What was the reason of her unparalleled brilliance?
The answer being
HERSELF
What changed were circumstances that are prone to change
All she needed to know was she could still be herself
The embossment of pride and virtue
Intellect and confidence
Knowledge and wisdom
Happiness
Does she really needed this world and its people
Not At All
In-fact they needed her to color and spark their dull life
All she needed was
SHE


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Saturday, December 5, 2009

Confused











Ohhk
So here the first piece of Shit
The day Started of pretty fine had internals the one we gave was a disaster No issues at least file got complete
It was at night when the chemicals of my brain stirred briskly
Ohhk so here we go
See this girl tht I hv been having a crush on for more than months now I really do like her a lot but than when I talk to her I behave as a complete nutcase. I just don’t know wat the fuck happens to me when I talk to her yeah most of the time I think I behave ok but when it comes to talking I don’t have any sub to talk on and I pick the weirdest and worst one MYSELF. I bug her quite a lot I think. But the fact is I like talkin to her.
In my entire life there hasn’t been any gal I have had hard time to impress largely because I never tried to impress I guess but in this case I do so knowingly or unknowingly. But I fact is I mess things up in the process. Than today I decided to ask myself wat I really want and wat I shud be doing and there’s when the confusion began. I LIKE here a lot I don’t have any doubt about the fact. I care for aswell whenever she will need me for anything if it be possible for me I’ll never back down or runaway. Ofcourse I don’t expect her to ask me for Taj mahal as a gift. But thn I thought is this something tht I do only for her. Nooh! I m like this I do this for almost any of my frnd.
Than wats so special about her. Hmmm thought! Thought! I gave it quite a thought.. No Darn Answers I guess its cz she is so full of life and has got that elegant ladies charm in her may be this is why. May be talkin to her relaxes my overworked mental muscles. I Freakin hv no Idea Why I LOVE talkin to her.
And here’s where the problem begins. Do I love her ??
What the fuck this gives rise to another Damned Question ??
What the heck is LOVE ?






For an Aloof kindda guy like me Questions like this easiest to answer when concerned with someone else and hardest ones when I m myself associated.
So as usual I had discussion with a friend not telling him why I asked this I Asked him
“ Yaaar Ek baat bata How do u know u love someone ?? “
He said “Hmmmm”
        something tricky
        dekh suppose 'x' ko tu like karta hai
         'like'
ME:   yup
      thn
Friend:  toh if in case yadi tereko jab bhi tu ckhalimauka hota hai
        ya khushi ka mauka hota hai
        aur uski yuaad aa jae
        dats means ur missing her too much
         yadi koi uske baare mein ant shantbole
         toh treri sanak jae.....
         lekin tu kuch bole na
         dat means u respect her alot
         yadi kisi ne kuch usko bol diya...toh tera khoon khaul jae
         aisi hi bahut saari cheezon ka combintion milkar hota hai
        hamesha uski chinta ki abhi kya kr rahi hogi..theek toh hogi ya nahi
        etc etc
ME :hmmm
The  chat was mentally over here as I was looking for answers here
dekh suppose 'x' ko tu like karta hai
         'like'
Hmm Yup I think I do like her a lot She has got a composure and Self presence tht makes me forgot myself for sometime otherwise I m too concerned with myself. But thn when I talk to her I talk abt myself generally so she must be feeling tht I m so damn self indulged  L
Result -> I Do Like her a lot <3
toh if in case yadi tereko jab bhi tu ckhalimauka hota hai
        ya khushi ka mauka hota hai
        aur uski yuaad aa jae
        dats means ur missing her too much
Hmm another big problem in this God Damnd Life ( Though I love this world and life in my own way) we rarely have chances of real happiness and I hvnt experienced any in long tym so cant say if I’ll remember her in those tym of happiness. But yeah I do think about her atleast a few times in a day.
Result :- Still Confused if I miss her too muchK

         yadi koi uske baare mein ant shantbole
         toh treri sanak jae.....
         lekin tu kuch bole na
         dat means u respect her a lot
Hmmm Well this is quite true though I take things Objectively but I don’t see any fault in her so I don’t like to listen anything against her.
Result -> I do respect her a lot ( this is something I never confused anyway )

yadi kisi ne kuch usko bol diya...toh tera khoon khaul jae
Hmmm rather tough one Cause till date none has said anything to her but thn I m someone who never gets angry so if I’ll get angry if someone says something to her Hmmm May be I’ll get I can see myself getting angry but thn I m 100 % sure about it aswell as I don’t know if I can be angry as I hv never been angry
Result -> Confusion
  aisi hi bahut saari cheezon ka combintion milkar hota hai
        hamesha uski chinta ki abhi kya kr rahi hogi..theek toh hogi ya nahi
        etc etc
As a person wat happens around me rarely bothers me and I m like this I dunno why but thn I think if I’ll be
I’ll be too passionate a lover. So it’s a state of confusion tht I’ll think wat she’ll be doing right now blah blah  frankly as of now I don’t think so about her tht “ Abhi kya kar rahee hogi” one of the reason may be I don’t really have time to think about this Yeah but I do think abt her “ like she has got such a cool attitude ‘ she looked well tht day, I shudnt hv said this , ishud behave this way, Why do I think so much abt her” and so on but not “ Kaisee hogi , kya kar rahee hogi . etc etc”
Finally after thinking for so long I felt like I was banging my head on a wall with no result so I gave up afterall I m a complete nutcase but than I felt HOW CAN  KNOW IF SHE ‘s THE ONE FOR ME UNLESS I TRY
Another mess in my mind now How to do that should I do this and so
END CONLUSION
I DO LIKE HER A LOT
I CARE FOR HER
I RESPECT HER
BUT NO IDEA
IF 


I LOVE HER 




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Thursday, December 3, 2009

Untitled


UNTITLED


Came as a fruit of spring filled all with delight

The prodigy had a look on his face that left all mesmerized

Showered with unconditional love and care

The guy was always apple of eyes

Grew up into calm composed budding ambient

With taken for granted love and care he became self indulgent

All those who sat him on their shoulders

To him they become mere ordinary existence

Being adulated for no reason still kept him on cloud 9

Closed his eyes, as they were, inculcated in him, Ignorance

Living in myths of being affable

He unknowingly grew into a heartless soul

At once that myth broke

Glass were shattered and tainted, reflections were blurred

He looked inside himself found banging wind chains

Amid the unbearable melodious vibrations, were Lovely childish still frames?

He broke he cried but tears were dry

He stressed hard but emotions were dead no idea where they lie

He tried again, again and again finally felt a thing

A dull thing

The only thing

I AM SORRY

Mayank Rajput

3rd December 2009


Sunday, June 28, 2009








HER MEMORIES





The breezes of winter when blew my hair
Instead of chill i felt a flair
It feel like it was yesterday
I slept in her laps like in happyness bay

The feel of her presence was so warming
I started to feel as if i was prince charming
She laughed on my dumbness as if a joke
The innocense in her smile was ocean of hope


I knew tht there was sumthing she was hiding frm me
But her cheerfullness and madness never let me worry
Sumwhere inside my heart i knew sumthing was wrong
But everything was absconded in her happyness thong


One sunday morning we were roaming in the park
Her hands in my hands an instant love spark
Then suddenly occured a bolt frm the blue
She fell in my arms her face was gloomed


It didnt took me long to know she was unconcious
Everything around seeemed so omnius
Her body in my arms i rushed through the park
Docs analysed her and said she had moments too last

The world around me crashed like a glass
I was in desert wid oasis so far
Everything seemed so meaning less
I felt lonenly in hopelessness

Her pressence her innocense wakes me at night
Her absence her her smile makes me weep at nights
To get off this hell i went on the hill
Where this winter breeze makes me still

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Friday, June 5, 2009

My Lucky Angel

In the golden light of early morning

My eyes were dazed by a glare at a distance

From my blinking eyes I peaked

And saw the pearl that I always seek

 

She was looking upwards at the reddish sun

Her eyes were shrunk and nose contracted

The horizons of her lips were stretched

With a broad smile as if bridging East & West

 

There was a certain charm to her beautiful face

Just a glance made butterflies flew out of my heart

She looked at me and waved her hand

Oh! Man!! The feeling was hard to stand

 

I tried to restrain but smile was obvious

My mind was zooming, though physically there I felt unconscious

I walk up to her and moved my hand

When she hold Man!! The warmth was so fabulous

 

I sat there all day to admire her beauty

Don’t know why but I knew it was my eternal duty

That was the first time I saw that pearl

Now she’s always with me MY LUCKY ANGEL

Tuesday, May 26, 2009



THOSE DAYS ARE LOST BUT MEMORIES ARE FOREVER

when the sunshine fell on the benches of park
little bare feets ran all around
there chattering echoed wid chirruping of birds
there innocence and abundance was so unconfound

wearing shorts Bats and ball in their hands
they grouped in the center like lifetime friends
soon a coin touched the sky everyone looked up in great anticipation
when it started to fall the hearts were pounding

soon two little masters with bats in their hands
took the center stage and were appraised in the baloney stands
in the consuming afternoons they played their hearts out
twilight beamed in the park and little cycles were out

next stop was the lassi shop
a cool hangover for tired souls
everyone drank as if their last drink
then the time for payment and chillar was out

after hours of argument payment was done
back home went mother's sweet little son
Ohh!!! God plzzzz giv back those days to me
those days are lost but not memories

THOSE DAYS ARE LOST BUT MEMORIES ARE FOREVER 

Friday, May 22, 2009

WheN I DeCidEd tO DiE



Everything in my life was so beautiful
I used to enjoy the time I spend with my friends
I used to enjoy everything that happened in my surrounding
The flowing wind, flapping leaves of trees
Chirruping of birds, scolding of parents
The world used to be so beautiful
I can’t describe in words
But than something went terribly wrong
And the worst part is I don’t know what it was
AND I LOST MYSELF

Everything in this world seemed like business
Even temples that used to provide me peace of mind felt like hotels now
I became so callous that I
Forgot laughing on jokes
Forgot mourning on deaths
My body was there but soul seemed petrified
My material existence was there
But can’t say same about my spiritual being

Everything in this world which was so dynamic
All of a sudden was immobile and static
Their was absolutely no meaning in anything
What’s life, what’s death?
What’s heaven what’s hell?
To me everything was a black hole, sucking everything inside
My hope, my zeal, my emotions
MY SOUL
MYSELF

I tried to look for a solution to get out of this misery
But all efforts were in vain due to hopelessness
I was so damn stoic
Nothing made me happy
Nothing made me sad
I neither felt good nor bad

When the world to me was a deserted place
There was extreme transparency and meanings were lost
When nothing was truth and the only TRUTH was LIE
I DECIDED THAT NOW I MUST DIE
 

The Avanger

THERES AN EMPTINESS INSIDE OF ME
EVERYTHING'S LIKE A BLASPHEMY
NO ONE HERE CAN SEE MY PAIN
CZ I SHED TEARS WHEN IT RAINS

ANXIETY IS KILLIN ME
MY LIFE IS LIKE AGONY
SHATTERED AND BROKEN MY HEART WEEPS AT NIGHT
TRYIN TO FIGHT A LOST FIGHT

THERES AN EMPTINESS INSIDE OF ME
EVERYTHING'S LIKE A BLASPHEMY.........

THERE'S NO MERE GLIMPSE OF ANY HOPE
LONELINESS KNOW ME FOR SURE
I HV NEVER HAD A FRIEND
THOSE I LOVED BROKE MY TRUST


THERES AN EMPTINESS INSIDE OF ME
EVERYTHING'S LIKE A BLASPHEMY.........


MY FEELING WERE OF NO MEANS
IGNORANCE WAS MEANT FOR ME
DITCHED FROM BACK AND SCREWED FROM FRONT
MY FATE WAS ALWAYS IN A SLUMP

EMOTIONS WERE CUT TO GORE
MY LOVE PROVED TO BE A WHORE
NEVER LIED AND NEVER CROOKED
STILL I CRIED AND STILL I SHOOKED

THERES AN EMPTINESS INSIDE OF ME
EVERYTHING'S LIKE A BLASPHEMY.........

IN THE END WAT I FOUND
MY LIFE WAS SO CONFOUND
I DN GIV A DAMN NO MORE
I DN CARE FR ANY WHORE

EVERYTHING IN LIFE IS LOST
NOW I M N AVENGER.......................